firstly YAY chanter for donating his old mouse.. that thing is the SHIT!!! cheers mate...
secondly boo to flu..
i think i'm a bit over twitter so i'm back on here.. and i'm over broadcasting on youtube too.. i just don't think i'm that interesting.. i keep going to put a video on there and i go "but it will BOre everyone SHITless" so yeah i may just stick to the occasional blog..
i kissed fidel and reuben and fleur goodbye the other day and caught the flu but srsly.. how can i be the "crazy aunty" if i don't kiss them through their snot? it's my duty..
just had an "analysis task" for specialist.. i'm just over school at the moment and so are all my CAE bitches.. it's just becoming a slog and it's not like high school.. it's hard to get good marks in hard classes there when you get a little bit of each topic everyday
but CAE... man... squashing a whole weeks worth of one subject into 3 hours.. it's just impossible to retain it all.. it's too much at once.. no one is doing well.. not even the really smart, disciplined ones.. looming failure and disappointment with results is saturating everybody.. no matter how hard we all try.. how much we study.. how many practice exams we do at home.. it's just not enough..
vce is designed to make people get used to the modern working world.. it's designed to brainwash us all into thinking that we must endure a situation where our most momentous efforts yield no rewards but are still required.
well fuck.. it just seems hopeless.. the drop out rate just skyrocketed cause of an official deadline.. and many of my friends have just thrown in the towel. without any warning.. here one week.. never heard from again.. and here i am.. pushing on.. it wouldn't be so freaky but they just keep dropping all round me like flies.. and we that are left are struggling.. struggling to bear the responsibilities of adults.. while doing a course designed for those that are kept.. and doing it in concentrated format..
i'm really disillusioned.. disappointed.. i'd say i can't compete but no-one else is really getting better grades.. so i guess i can't compete.. with the system..
"oh don't worry" the teachers are all saying.. "everything gets scaled up in the end".. "you'll be right"... just get into uni for ANYTHING and you can transfer to what you specifically want to do when you're already in there..
why is the system like this?
so people feel like they're underachievers who don't deserve anything that's why. so people feel like they're lucky to get a degree and a boring laboratory job.. it's designed to make us feel lucky that we're total fucking slaves.
forever. day in day out. mindless. repeditive. under management. under.
if i have shit grades.. it's because the education system is ineffective. i am smart. i deserve to do what i want when i want and get paid for it and anyone who disagrees with me has bought into their own slavery.
i hope you're happy with it..
i think you deserve BETTER.. but if you think i deserve LESS than what i'm asking that's your perogative and we're just not going to agree on what we should expect from life...
oh i have some nerve don't i?
walking around thinking that i can escape the drudgery.. the drudgery that "we all have to bear" well who says? i've been a shitkicker all my life.. and i'm done